I Wait for Nobody

A couple of days ago, my mother and I were visiting Churches as a part of Christian tradition. I’m a Buddhist so I didn’t really get into it. We finally took a break in a McDonald’s near one of the churches.

From out of nowhere, my mother told me, “If you go abroad, I might transfer to Cebu.”

I thought to myself, “Okay. I honestly could care less since you’re inheriting grandfather’s land and property anyways.”

But then she followed up with, “You shouldn’t go right away. Maybe it’s not God’s plan that you should go right away. We have to fix some things.”

That pissed me off so much. I wanted to tell her, “I will never wait for you.” But instead, I said, “No. I’m not waiting anymore. I’ve already sent 54 applications just for yesterday.”

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These sort of things pisses me off so much. I will never wait for ANYONE. I will leave people behind for my chance to achieve my dream. No one will hold me back. When my mother told me to stay behind, I suddenly felt this anchor around my neck. What kind of mother stops their children from progressing in life?

This isn’t the first time she’s stopped me from going overseas. The first time was during my freshman year at DLSU. I was supposed to migrate to Australia with my mother’s friends. I would study medicine and be a nurse. That was the plan until my mother stopped me from going. The second time was when a friend of mine invited me to study Chinese with her in China for a year while we taught English. Again, my mother stopped me from going.

I had an inkling that I was alone in this venture to Japan, and my mother’s words just set that idea in stone. She has lifted that cloud of doubt. I am alone in this.

*Featured image from http://www.us-japan.org/resources/usjapanlinks/education/

Unexpected Inspiration

I just came from a teacher’s training seminar on Mind Mapping and Speed Reading. This is the third time I went through this training. We teachers at the company needed to do this since college entrance exam season is coming up, and the company decided to change the format of the lesson plans a bit. We were tasked to make a mind map of happiness, and I naturally did a mind map of working and living in Japan. That was pretty much the highlight of the training. I also noticed that there was a guy beside me practising his Japanese, and I was a bit jealous of that. Good on him though!

What was surprising for was that he came up to me as I was leaving. He asked me if I was interested in Japan, and I said that I was. So we talked a lot about why we wanted to go to Japan. He was interested in becoming interpreter or translator then, later on, develop a good Filipino-English dictionary app. Apparently, the Filipino dictionaries here in the Philippines are not as good as English dictionaries or even Japanese dictionaries.

This person was a man of language. He studied for his JLPT N5 on his own and got it! He didn’t need an aid of a class or anything. If he could do it, then I could do it. So starting today, I’m going to brush up on my Japanese and eventually sign up for the JLPT N5. I hope I can do it by the end of the year. Wish me luck!