How I Put Up With My Weekly University Torture…

We have this thing our university called The Civic Welfare Training Service (CWTS) under the National Service Training Program the government established in 2001.  So what we do basically is going to an economically depressed area and help them out. We gain experience and understanding with what they go through in their lives; we try to take some of that load off their shoulders. We do that for 8 weeks, then we never get to see them again. Which is a good thing for me.

There are two courses under NSTP, one is the said above and the other is ROTC. We all know that one. I didn’t join ROTC because Continue reading “How I Put Up With My Weekly University Torture…”

This is what happens when you slightly piss me off on my blog

This is what the fucking redneck wrote

yer such a drama queen, yknow? suing yer father is soo trying hard. next time i come upon an interesting blog name, i’ll look at the profile picture of the prson and judge them. hahaha!!!1!1

And here’s the url to it  link

And here’s the proof of the comment

Now here’s the problem you little fucking prick. How dare you judge me like you know me so well. Like you know me like the back of your hand. Just because you’ve read one blog of mine means that you know my whole entire life?! You call me a drama queen but you have no fucking idea what I’ve been through and no one knows about it ’cause I’m too ashamed to tell them what I’ve done in the past you fucking asshole. Do you even know what my father did to me and my mother? NO YOU DON’T. You obviously haven’t heard of the term “don’t judge a book by its cover” ’cause of all of your narcissistic bullshit that’s spilling out of your overgrown ego which is blocking your lost logic and reasoning, which I know you’ll never be able to get back or even develop.

You know what you are? You’re an uneducated, ignorant little pissant whose got personality issues. Yeah, you are obviously uneducated, you can’t even type a simple hate sentence right. Have you ever heard of capital letters? A sentence always begins with a capital letter, a proper noun, like a person’s name, begins with a capital letter, a proper noun, like a place, begins with a capital letter, proper nouns, which are SPECIAL names, begin with a capital letter. But obviously you wouldn’t know that ’cause you never paid attention in you class. I pity the breadwinners of your family, their hard work to pay for your education was just flushed down the toilet. In fact they should’ve just flushed it down, why waste it on you if they could use it to wipe their ass instead?

If you can’t find the conclusions to my premises and enthymemes, then you my little ignoramus, redneck, pissant, asswipe are no use of talking to. I wouldn’t dare have a logical argument with you. You obviously have nothing to prove to me. You now have the burden of proof. Your move.

PS. I was kind enough to remove your email an IP address in the picture above. Piss me off again and I’ll be giving your email to everyone, agreed? Good.

It just keeps getting harder and harder

Today my mother just told me something I wished I never heard. Now I have no choice but to find a job and pay for the bills. Yes, we are in need of financial assistance and I’m the assistance. I really don’t like the idea, but I have to work, or the bills won’t be paid. If anyone knows where I can get a job, most likely in Katipunan, that would such a great great help.

My life us great isn’t it? It just keeps going downhill and it isn’t showing any signs of slowing down :) I’m beginning to hate people a lot nowadays. Like how I hate people who are happy with their lives and how I hate people who can wake up with a smile in their face and enjoy the day and people with whole, happy families that just work and understand each other! I fucking detest those kind of people.

You may call me bitter or a hater, but what the fuck do you know about my life and how I feel? You ain’t walkin’ in my shoes, are ya?

Finally, ending

Today I woke up at 5 in the morning so I could review before my tutor arrived. But I also woke up 5 ’cause the porn I downloaded the night before finally finished :)) (though I must say it was quite enjoyable :p) so I took a shower ate brekky while watching Good Morning Mickey, as do I always :)) then alas my tutor arrived early! I didn’t have tine to review anymore, but meh. So began the grueling two hours of El Filibusterismo. I swear, if Filipino were in English, I would gladly read El Fili, sadly, that’ll never happen for obvious reasons :))

Then after two hours, I finally finished the book (salamat sa diyos :)) ) then I felt a small sense of relief, as do I every time I finish all modules on a subject. My mom felt relieved as well, ’cause she knows I feakin suck in Filipino :)) then I told my mom I’d go up and change into my uniform. So I did, and I watched a little porn (I deserve a reward don’t I? :)) ) then I came down with my iPod on, playing on shuffle, although I never expected Fade (by LITE) to play so early in the morning. I turned down the volume so I could hear what my mom and my tutor were talking about, as always.. it’s about showbiz, money, school etc. then as I was about to turn up the volume again my mom said “ay! last time na natin magkikita Jingle!” (my tutor’s name) then on that exact moment, Fade, the song I was listening to, transitioned into a melody that sounded like a “realization” but at the same time it sounded like “sunrise after a dark storm”

It was then and there I started to realize that everything about my high school life was about to end. Today was the last day I would ever see my tutor ever again, and my god we have gone through a hell lot. I owe her a debt of gratitude, is what I thought when I heard my mom speak those words.

My high school life is about to end, and it sucks ’cause I never had a normal highschool life. I’ve always wanted to experience what those kids in HSM experienced. Although a lot of kids haven’t experienced a normal school life… my life outside school affected my life inside school… anyway..

And just when I thought I was finally getting a normal high school life, the thing I thought I’d never get a chance to have or to even just have a taste of, it happens. What happens is, I finally get a chance to feel what those kids feel, even if it’s just a bit, but it’s gonna be short-lived ’cause I’ll be leaving HS soon.

It’s stupid because I thought I didn’t have to experience a great high school life. In all these years I thought I didn’t need such “trivial things”. I thought I could survive on my own and move on to college. Seriously, that’s what I thought.. I thought that being a hermit was all right as long as you get things done. Sure I had friends before, but I dunno… it felt like I wasn’t really there.

But now, that’s not the case, in just a couple of weeks before grad I got a taste of having fun at school, of what it really means to have irreplaceable friends and even I know it’s gonna be short-lived, I finally know what it’s like to have a real high school life. Laughter, pain, betrayal, dramas, hardships, good times, alone times, all that jazz.

I’ve always wanted to get out of HS ever since I first stepped foot in it. But now.. I can’t believe I’m gonna say this… but I’m gonna miss HS, although it wasn’t quite as “normal” as to how everyone would expect it to be, it’s the closest thing I can ever to, it’s the best thing I ever got to.

I’m going to miss everyone.

I guess this is that pain that everyone’s been talking about.

And then I snapped back into reality, what seemed to be minutes and minutes of emotional dwelling, in totality just took up 1:30 of my life (the time left in the song)

I played that song over and over to see if I’ve forgotten to realize something, apparently I didn’t. But maybe it was just due to the fact that I wanted to feel that moment again, that moment when I came to my senses and realized that everything is finally ending.

And so as I type on this iPod and listen to Fade (again) along the way to school, I say, thank you.

FOREVER FORNEVER

(It’s been a while hasn’t it WordPress? Thankfully, you’re one of the few who never leave :P  Expect one more entry every soon)