The Mistake

I’ve always thought that I loved what I studied. International Relations (IR) seemed to be a degree that I was determined to finish with pride. I’ve been so wrong, and it took me two weeks of International Law (INTLLAW) *and a semi-covert day out in Ateneo* to find out what I really wanted. It’s true though, that I love to study. I love to read things that have existed for years, and yet never heard of until I’ve read them. I love that professors teach me things that explain why the world is the way it is. My mind is hungry, so hungry that I forgot that I’m made up of more than just a slab of gray matter. I’ve been so caught up in filling my mind that I’ve completely starved my soul. I realised it the hard way.

Studying INTLLAW changed how I did things. I study way in advance, TRY to finish all the materials needed for the day, then review what I’ve studied; I also have other Majors to deal with. I kept doing this routine, until one day, I just cracked. I broke down from the stress, a pressure that I thought I was totally used to. But the stress from my family meddled with my focus to study, and I couldn’t use academics to deviate my attention away from my family. I was completely bare to the emotional attack that I apparently set up for myself all these years without knowing. I had no armour; I was made of glass instead of the usual three-inch-thick-crocodile-skin. I questioned what I was doing, “Is this what I truly want? Getting an IR degree so that I could go back to where I grew up? Is IR what I would have picked at all?” And the answer is, no. Continue reading “The Mistake”

Your Zodiac/Horoscope and if You Think it Fits Your Personality (30 Day Challenge, day 15)

I’ve always been interested in these eastern mystical things. I’ve always wondered how on earth they’d come up with these kinds of profile for people that they probably would never meet. But I realized that this tradition has been in practiced for thousands of years and surely enough, the Chinese might’ve gotten a large amount of data to base their horoscopes on… Anyway whatever, enough with my babbling!

Personality: “Understanding” is a most appropriate keyword for this gentle, affectionate sign. Easygoing and generally accepting of others around them, Pisceans are often found in the company of a variety of different personalities. Their willingness to give of themselves emotionally lends to an aura of quiet empathy. A Pisces is comforting to be around. While not likely to be the leader, this sign’s presence is strong and vibrant in any cause they put their hearts into.

This is actually quite right to be honest. Many of my friends seem to tell me their problems and I really do try to understand them from their standpoint so that I could help them out any way I can. Although! There are three things that bother me about what horoscope.com thinks of me as a Piscean. One, Continue reading “Your Zodiac/Horoscope and if You Think it Fits Your Personality (30 Day Challenge, day 15)”